So this is love

I am begging to find it all a little funny, to go from being so lonely and unhappy to becoming this totally different person all at once. I never thought I would see my self caring for another human (out side of close friends and family of course) as much i do. Its all so inevitable to me that I can be so perfectly and contently in love with someone. I wake up with a sudden reach of my phone to see if he has text me. My love. This important text can also very much determine how my day is going to go because it can make or break my day. A simple comment such as "you look beautiful" or "hi my love" can send my emotions to the stars and back. A kiss on the forehead creates a burning sensation in my chest and sends the chills up and down my spine, cheesy right? I almost laugh at the pathetic part of it all. Do i even know what love like this is? Do i even experience a love like this a such a young age of my life? About two years ago I would never have seen my self acting and living in this current life style. It almost comes to me as embarrassing that I can be so emotionally, physically, and sexually attracted to one person. To be so honest it scares me to a point where I choose not to make my self so venerable and open with him and close off a lot of little tiny parts of me he still doesn't know. Sadly I am positive i know all i can about him, with or without is help of telling me. Here is the real thing though, is it bad that i may like the attention I can get from others besides him? Sure i have lots of boy friends that come and go, none of which i am interested in. I do like the attention I get when they say that they would love to date me and selfishly ask why I am dating him. Potentially i feel as if I am doing something so very wrong that its almost cheating. I would never want to give up on what I have with this boy. I am scared to talk about how truthfully in love with him I am. I don't tell people about are little secrets are the hikes we choose to go on, I don't mention our adventures we go on where we laugh endlessly and wish the clock would stop for just a little while. I am laughing at myself right now. I honestly think this is pathetic that I am so crazy about him.

Baby you make my heart beat faster
I love you forever.